Bigsley the Oaf

Posted in Uncategorized by bigsleytheoaf on August 26, 2013

heart heart heart heart noisy heart heart

noisy mind noisy heart


check facebook don’t check facebook
check twitter don’t check twitter
workin a job gonna work that job gonna work work work that job
gotta get that money gotta make that money
gotta maintain the life STYLE maintain the life THING

you know it’s like if you drop out of our lifestyle then everyone will stop loving you but it’s not because they never loved you in the first place it’s because their love was a function of your lifestyle and your embedding in society

it’s like, there’s no such thing as anything to you but why would there be but then why does it feel as if there is

it’s as if the nature of our connection to reality is itself some sort of weird self-defeating paradox

it’s as if the connection itself is paradoxical – that knowing anything is its unknowing, that any self-knowledge can only create, intrinsically, deeper pits of ignorance to fall into 


someone claims to see something but in that claiming they lose their doubt but in losing their doubt they become less self-aware, less conscious of the potential falsehood of their knowledge

to have any sort of extrinsic knowledge is to forego intrinsic knowledge

a person composed entirely of extrinsic understanding has no self-knowledge – what would be the use – to the extent that we are wholly informational systems (not only our brains) our reflection of the outside means that we must necessarily not reflect the inside

this property of the nature of consciousness is frustrating to the extreme – because you can make a choice, but any choice that you make it simply the flipping of a bit, the revelation of an informational state of reality



I don’t know if any of this is clear – I’m not going back to re-read, re-edit, I’m trying to paint a picture of an idea I have, of a thing I can see but can never describe

I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to do


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  1. Graham said, on August 26, 2013 at 6:08 pm

    I think I know what you mean. Drew and I conceptualized this idea with the aphorism: “the bigger the fire, the bigger the darkness around it”. Which is, of course, true. A brighter light helps you see better, but only in the place where you are looking. It blinds you to the darkness just outside of the scope of the light.

    This is so tied up in the limitations of frameworks, it’s not even funny.

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